Finalization Day - Two Years Later

 On this day two years ago, the courts made official what God saw before I was even born.  This divine appointment solidified our union with this precious soul.

To be honest, I forgot.  I forgot because there are so many special parts of Emily's story. There is the part where we found out about her.  Then there is the part when she came into the world.

I forgot today but there are things i'll never forget.

I'll never forget her Birth Mom's face. I tear up thinking about it.  I'll never forget when she said, "Go hold your baby", after Emily was born.  I'll never forget what a fulfilled promise feels like.

Everyday I look at my daughter and can't believe how amazing she is.

But even two years later, my heart still breaks a little bit. There is a sadness to adoption, a guilt that is hard to shake.  You see, while this day is a cause for celebration in my heart, it will be a slight reminder of loss to my precious daughter one day.  She will one day realize that in a perfect world, she would have stayed with her first mother. She would know her original father and never have to wonder if they are thinking about her.

There will be wounds that arise that I cannot heal. But that isn't my role in this at all.  My role, my reason for being in her life, is to bring her to the feet of Jesus daily and allow Him to show her his redeeming plan.

I dream of a day in Heaven where she will be whole. I pray her birth family will be there with her and she will get to experience life with them.

So today we remember her becoming ours, but everyday we live out becoming us.