Almost…
Yesterday at about 3pm- Sully and I got a call from Bethany,
our adoption agency. There was a baby who had been in the NICU for 6 weeks and
no one from the family had been to see him so they decided to make a birth
plan. Since he was born at 28 weeks, the agency wanted to make sure that
families would be okay with delicate nature. We made some calls, prayed about it and then notified them
to show our profile.
We gathered a small group of people to pray over us. Several
requests were lifted up to God. We
prayed for the Birth mom, we prayed God would pick us, we prayed that He would
provide what we need, we prayed for the health of the baby, we prayed for God’s
hand on his life even if it did not include us.
As you can imagine, I was a nervous/anxious wreck. My husband
was amazing. Calm and steady. So glad God gave me someone different from me.
They told us the baby would be released from the hospital on
Wednesday(today). We were expecting to hear something that night. Sully and I decided to keep our
schedules for the evening to help as a distraction.
I fell asleep fine but woke up at midnight thinking like
crazy. Wondering if she would pick us, thinking about Moby Wrap colors, how we
would tell people and at the same time telling myself to stop. At that moment I prayed for God to
protect us if this baby would be medically/financially more than we can handle.
I prayed for God to let us know promptly so I can have some peace. I prayed for
God to help me be okay even if we weren’t chosen.
By 9am today, I was a ball of exhaustion and jitters.
Commercial
break- I work with the most amazing people. The staff at WellSpring is family
and if nothing good ever happens to me again, working with this team is
blessing enough.
Sully called Bethany Christian Services at 9:15 and was told
they had not yet shown any profiles. This calmed me down a lot. I was just grateful that at least it
hadn’t been decided and everyone knew but me.
I didn’t feel good all day today. I was tired and had a
weird phase of vertigo come on. I think God gave me the vertigo as a
diversion.
At about 6:30 tonight- we were notified that the birth mom
had chosen another family.
We were almost parents.
God is with us in this process. We are both remarkably at peace. I am amazed at the patience
and trust of my husband.
We don’t know what is next but we do know God is writing a
really good story.
