A few days ago I posted an entry about an exchange I had with Emily. You can read the full post here.
I didn't give her what she wanted so with an angry voice she quipped, "You're not a good Mommy".
The Lord is still revealing things to me through that story.
Yesterday, I realized I am just like her.
It's National Adoption Month and every November I think through our story.
When we were going through our adoption journey, it was a long season of waiting and heartbreak.
There were so many portal messages from the agency about our profile being shown and yet no one chose us. Then there was the failed placement. I remember, just like my daughter, telling God that I didn't think He was being a good Father because why you would withhold something good from someone you love?
I know why now.
Timing.
As I was reading Oswald Chambers', "My Utmost For His Highest" this morning, I was pricked by the last sentence of his entry. He writes, "If through a broken heart God can bring His purposes to pass in the world, then thank Him for breaking your heart."
Through our adoption journery God took us through some places where our hearts broke but I am ever so thankful because His purpose was Emily and Ezra.
He is truly is good.
