Wednesday, April 13, 2016

When your cup runneth over and swallows you a bit.

I have everything I want.

Well, almost. Too many miles still span between Tennessee and Florida BUT other than that, I have everything I want.

I have a beautiful baby girl that I prayed years for.  I am 20 weeks pregnant with a miracle baby I never even dreamed would come. I have a great husband and a beautiful house.  I am on staff at the type of church many ministers dream of and its growing like wildfire.

My cup runneth over and yet I feel it's drowning me a bit.

Luke 12:48 says, "Great gifts mean great responsibilities; greater gifts, greater responsibilities!"

It is easy to forget the responsibility that comes with blessing.

Thankful beyond words yet I feel ill-equipped to handle all the expectation.  Parenting one toddler, pregnant with another,  responsible for stewarding a ministry of 250+ kids and 120+ volunteers and being married to a man who is just as gifted if not more for ministry.

These past few days I have really been questioning.  Do I need to make a change? Am I the one you want in all these positions? Me, Lord? Are you sure I can do all this? 

"Apart from me, you can do nothing." John 15:15

"But with God all things are possible." Matthew 19:26

As I type these words I have this song on repeat.

Lord, I need you. Every.Hour.I.Need.You.

We had our 20-week scan to see our son today.

This is Ezra. Ezra Stone.  Ezra means "helper" and Stone represents strength.

 The gifts are great. The responsibilities are great. My God is great and He promises to help renew strength.