Okay, but give me the details...

In case you aren't a part of WellSpring or you missed the announcement, this video was sent to volunteers and shown at church today.

My chapter at WellSpring is coming to a close.  As I stated in the message, there really isn't some sneaky drama or secret to cover up. But there is a back-story, a genesis to my exodus if you will. Sorry, churchy humor. I couldn't help myself. 

So if you want the details of how this all happened, make a cup of tea and settle in.

In 8.5 years at WellSpring, I have never looked for a job. I had received the occasional recruitment but always politely turned the opportunities down. We didn't have any plans to leave.

Until about 6 months ago.  God began stirring in my heart this feeling that something was coming, and unsettledness was approaching.  In August, an opportunity for a church in South Florida came around and I felt like God wasn't telling me to shut it down like I had in the past.  It is the church my Mom attends and I have a few friends that work there. I called a mentor of mine, a Paul to my Timothy, and asked him to pray through this with me and to be a reference. At the end of the conversation, he said, "just think about why all the sudden in 8.5 years, are you open to this idea now?" He went on to say that this may be the church God wants us or it might not be. Maybe the point of this church was to start the process.  I interviewed with that church and turned down an invitation to come. Twice.  I didn't have a peace about it and neither did Sully.  They changed the position to fit my skills exactly.  They wanted to hire Sully for a full-time Tech Director job. It would have made complete sense on paper but I just didn't have the burden to go there from the Holy Spirit.

I thought back to what my mentor said and really felt like the desire of my heart since having Ezra was to be closer to my family. I had even prayed for a way to make that happen.  So I looked. I went to a church staffing page and I looked.  That was a hard move. I felt like I was cheating.

Then I saw that a church in Savannah, GA, Compassion Christian, was hiring an Elementary Minister and that it was a Christian Church(the church tradition I was raised in). The Christian Church is somewhat of a small world. There are a few conferences and colleges that everyone in the movement goes to so there is a lot of crossover. I figured I would probably know someone.  Sure enough, I saw that one of my friends from college worked there and so did her husband. I hadn't talked to her in 10 years but I figured I would ask her before I go through all the effort of applying and interviewing.  So I sent her a Facebook message and asked her if she would be open to answering a few questions.

When we connected over the phone, she opened with this, "Before we tell you all about it, I want you to know that a few weeks ago, I was just saying to my husband that maybe Melissa Drummond would be interested."

Did you catch that? I've not talked to her in 10 years, she mentions my name to her husband and just a few weeks later I message her to ask her about the position.  Can't.make.this.up. Come to find out later that her husband actually wanted to call and she told him they weren't going to poach people. :)

That got my attention.   Even still, I wasn't convinced I was supposed to pursue it, or maybe I was just being stubborn. I needed more. So I wanted to speak with the Children's Minister, Rob.  I don't know what I was expecting really but I remember being caught off guard after my conversation with him.  I was caught off guard by how much I wanted to explore the idea of working with him and what being a part of the team would look like there.  It's different in a lot of ways and would be a huge change but I felt like I needed to keep moving forward.  At the same time, the Senior Pastor for this church was doing a retreat at my friend Amanda's church. Wouldn't you know it, a conversation about me and Children's Ministry came up organically two days before what would be my interview with them.

Compassion requested a Skype interview on a Monday and I took a vacation day from work to do the interview and to spend the afternoon in prayer. It was important to me, that I didn't use WellSpring time to do that.  The next day, they called me and wanted me to come out for a visit...THAT weekend.

Whoa. So it was like a line in the sand moment. If I went, I would have to tell Andy because I love and respect him. If I went, I would have to come to terms with the concept that moving was now a possibility. Sully and I prayed and felt like we should go. It was his 30th birthday weekend, so we thought going on an adventure would be fun.






I talked to Andy and I cried.  Andy Hudelsons don't grow on trees and I'll never find another one like him.  Being the precious pastor that he is, he assured me that if God was telling us to go, we needed to do it but to not make any quick decisions and to give them the opportunity to explore what it would take for us to stay.

Driving over there, I actually thought, I am probably not going to take this and leave everything I have known and all the people I love.  I was telling God in my head that I would look but was probably just browsing, especially since Andy had encouraged us to process what it would take to get us to stay.

Now back to Rob. We get to the church, do a tour and the first thing on the agenda was lunch with Rob.  We make small talk over french fries and then I ask him how he ended up at Compassion. He tells his story about how they were living in California close to friends and in walking distance to awesome places and they were at a lovely church, sound familiar, minus the Cali part? Then he shared about how God told him and his wife Julie to leave and they weren't even sure where they were supposed to go.  Then he says this, "My church asked me to think about what it would take for me to stay and I felt like I was supposed to say, thank you, I love you, but no." When he said that, I felt like someone punched me in the gut. It was this feeling of, that is going to be me. I ignored it and moved on. We get in the car and Sully expresses that he had the SAME feeling when Rob said that.

We had a dinner that night and the next day we were slated to see the sights of Savannah with Rob and his wife Julie.  The second I met her, I liked her.  She hopped in the driver's seat of the van and said that she was better with directions and I thought to myself, kindred spirits.

We had a wonderful time and I thought, if anything, that gal is a selling point herself.

During our time together, she asked me if I had any hesitations about coming there and what they were. I am not even sure what I said and probably fumbled the answer but in my head, I was thinking of a million things at once, my friends, starting over, childcare, leaving comfort etc. Not knowing what I was thinking, she replied, "just don't let fear be a determining factor".  I wanted to jokingly shout, "You don't know me" and cross my arms because when she said that I knew that was the exact hesitation.

Saturday night, Sully and I had some free time so we decided to drive up to Hilton Head since we had never been before. We drove to the beach and I wanted to walk out to the shore even though we didn't have swim stuff. I was walking looking at my feet in the sand and thought to myself, it would be really cool if I saw some dolphins. I have a thing with dolphins. I really don't like any other animal but dolphins are my jam.  Wouldn't you know it, right after I thought that, I got to the water looked up and there was a pod of dolphins!  Come on. Cray.

Then it was Sunday and I was asked to teach a large group session and a small group and I found myself...nervous. I teach all the time and it was my spiritual gift, why was I nervous?  I realized it was because I wanted them to like me. I wanted them to want to hire me.   I did the large group and felt a fire that I don't feel all the time. It's the feeling I get when I lead camps or talk to parents about leading their kids spiritually. It's this feeling of doing the EXACT thing you are supposed to be doing at the EXACT time you should be doing it. I then went on to teach a small group. We did the lesson and only had a few minutes for prayer. I took two requests. One girl raised her hand and said, "Pray for my family because we are moving. I know it is going to be hard but we are supposed to move".

Okay Jesus, I get it. 

I loved hanging out in their children's ministry. It was so life-giving to me.

The final thing on the agenda was my interview with Cam, the Senior Minister and Harvey, the executive minister.  As I was sharing my testimony that included talking about my parent's divorce and our failed adoption, Cam would stop me and validate how hard that must have been and he was sorry that I had to walk through those things. Precious man. I felt like I was talking to Andy, the forever pastor.  The interview went well and then it was time to decompress.

We headed over to Rachel and Jason's house, they were the friends from college that we spoke to.  It was such a blessing to process through all of this with them because just a little over a year ago, they walked through the same thing.

The next morning we headed home and I just knew. No offer had been made but I knew this whole thing was probably going to happen. I had a few more questions for Rob to clarify the role and thought, well maybe this will help me decide and of course, everything he replied with is what I had previously told Sully I hoped was the case.

I called Andy and I cried. I just didn't want him to be hurt. He assured me that it would be okay and that it's going to be good either way.

I was not waiting patiently for the offer and it finally came. I think I probably consumed all of Amanda's data with my antsy texts.

I sought wise counsel and talked to my "Paul".  He walked me through a process to really test the Spirit and make sure it was in fact God calling us.

We prayed and then even moments before I accepted, I asked Sully one more time if he was sure this was right.  He had so much discernment with turning down the other place and I was hoping he would have the same for this position. He felt strongly that we should go and that it would a good move for our family.

And just like that, the decision was made.

The following Monday, we told Andy and the staff and now we're here.

Those are the details and that is the back story. Sure, there is more but those are the high points.


I wrote this in hopes that you would see it's no accident. We didn't move forward blindly. Every step was met by me getting on my knees.

I am leaving home. I am leaving my friends. I am leaving my comfort.

But I think it is exactly what I am supposed to do.  Sure, I am scared and out of control but I am excited and watching with expectation for how God will use me.  The Bible is full of people who built an ark, put a baby in a river, marched around walls and defeated a giant. When we give God control, we can do amazing things!

There is an amazing song by Bethel that has been my anthem through this process and I want to close with it because I feel like the lyrics are a perfect picture of the newest journey that God has called us to adopt.

"Can you turn the bumps off, please?"

I thought I understood God...and then I became a parent.

God constantly uses my children to reveal Himself to me.

I was on a walk with my kids this morning and we came to a certain part of the path where the sidewalk gets really bumpy.

Emily exclaimed, "Ouch, those bumps hurt I don't like them". I told her I was sorry they hurt and we would be past them soon. We went over a few more and she said, "Can you turn the bumps off, please?" I could have ended our walk and turned around but we wouldn't have reached our destination.

I actually stopped and thought, "Whoa".

How many times in our life do we come to a bumpy part of the path God has us on and exclaim, "These bumps hurt and I don't like them". How many times do we ask God to turn them off or remove them all together?

But God knows that the bumps are part of the path on the journey He has on. If you stop, you may not reach the destination God has for you.

There are times when the path for our life takes us into a place of refreshment or excitement. Then there are times when our journeys often include bumps, hills, and valleys.

This blog is called "Adopt A Journey" because really that is what God invites us to, isn't it?

We are invited on this journey to follow the One who created the path and gave us a Way through it.

If you are walking with God and your path is a little bumpy, don't give up. It's won't last forever.

I know the bumps hurt, I have felt them time and time again.

Soon, you'll reach your destination and you'll see why you traveled the path you did.

By Faith

This morning I opened my Bible to Hebrews 11. Yes, a physical Bible. I used to just read on my phone but I think some meaning can be lost when we scroll through God's word as we scroll through social media. 


Before my eyes was an amazing record. You can read Hebrews 11, maybe even in a physical Bible, to see what they did but I wanted to give you this list. 

 By faith Abel  

 By faith Enoch 

 By faith Noah

 By faith Abraham 

 By faith Sarah

 By faith Abraham

 By faith Isaac 

 By faith Jacob

 By faith Joseph

 By faith Moses’ parents

 By faith Moses 

 By faith the Israelites 

 By faith Joshua 

 By faith Rahab

The ancients on the list above were not perfect. They all messed up but that isn't how they are remembered. No, these believers are remembered for their faith in God's bigger plan. They are remembered for stepping up even when it may have been easier to stay down. 

Our community experienced a tragedy last night.  When the Breath of Heaven isn't seen, darkness can be suffocating. 

But there were some "By faith" phrases written last night. 

By faith, a neighbor dove head first into a trauma of a stranger.

By faith, two pastors willing entered into the pain of grief with a family they'd never met. 

By faith, a man worked late into the night to remove remnants of the darkness. 

The modern saints above should have their names in a faith hall of fame. They're all too humble for that, though. 

The phrases aren't reserved for a select few. They aren't just the call of the strong because really without God's Spirit, we are all weak. 

The phrases are meant for all of us. 

What will your "By faith" be?

Be praying for an opportunity to have one written. 

12 Stone Moments

In the book of Joshua, we read about The Israelites setting up a monument of sorts to represent what God had brought them through and to.  They took twelve stones and placed them in the bed of the Jordan River as a way to remember how God had moved in their story.

We all have our own "12 Stone Moments" as I like to call them.  These moments represent times in our life when God desired to bring us through and to something. These moments are the ones that grow you and change you.  Have a character flaw?  I would bet God will give you a "12 Stone Moment" to change it.  The end result of the moment is not the point, it's the process that requires the stone.

I always struggled with waiting.  From childhood to adulthood, I was not patient at all.  I still haven't arrived but I am WAY better than what I was.

God knew I needed a "12 Stone Moment" to change this in me.  So He led my husband and I, on a long adoption process that was grueling, heartbreaking and redeeming.  Emily is one of my stones. Her eyes remind me that God's perfect plan is far better than anything I could ever ask or imagine. Her story reminds me that God is creating something beautiful and the exact time He gives is one of the most beautiful things of all.

God knew I needed a "12 Stone Moment" when He gave us Ezra. This is why I love Ezra's middle name, Stone.  I like to control things.  I want to be good at all the things and have everything running smoothly.  People would ask us when we were going to adopt again and I would say some point when I felt like it would be good for me.  Completely leaving God out of the process. Lo and behold, here comes Ezra.  I have never felt more empty and in need of Jesus as I did with a baby and an 18 month old...and a full time job.  It was grueling, heartbreaking and redeeming. The Lord is faithful.

For the last few months, I have felt one of these moments coming.  God's main concern is my holiness, for my own good.  He will continue to give me these moments so I can become more like Him.

I am not a good listener.  My brain is constantly firing with ideas.  I am a problem solver, so the second someone has an issue, I snap into solution mode.  At the same time, I stop listening.  God is not content to leave me with character flaws.

 Enter, what God is teaching me now.

We all have moments when we need to listen for what God wants.  Sometimes, we get lucky like Moses and we get the burning bush.  Sometimes we get the pillar of fire.

Then other times we get 1 Kings 19:11-13.

The Lord said, “Go out. Stand on the mountain in front of me. I am going to pass by.”

As the Lord approached, a very powerful wind tore the mountains apart. It broke up the rocks. But the Lord wasn’t in the wind. After the wind, there was an earthquake. But the Lord wasn’t in the earthquake. 12 After the earthquake, a fire came. But the Lord wasn’t in the fire. And after the fire, there was only a gentle whisper. When Elijah heard it, he pulled his coat over his face.

So here I am working on my next stone, learning to listen.  I am pretty sure God's voice won't be in the burning bush, the wind, the earthquake or the fire.

God will speak in a gentle whisper because He wants me to learn how to hear His gentle voice.

Finalization Day - Two Years Later

 On this day two years ago, the courts made official what God saw before I was even born.  This divine appointment solidified our union with this precious soul.

To be honest, I forgot.  I forgot because there are so many special parts of Emily's story. There is the part where we found out about her.  Then there is the part when she came into the world.

I forgot today but there are things i'll never forget.

I'll never forget her Birth Mom's face. I tear up thinking about it.  I'll never forget when she said, "Go hold your baby", after Emily was born.  I'll never forget what a fulfilled promise feels like.

Everyday I look at my daughter and can't believe how amazing she is.

But even two years later, my heart still breaks a little bit. There is a sadness to adoption, a guilt that is hard to shake.  You see, while this day is a cause for celebration in my heart, it will be a slight reminder of loss to my precious daughter one day.  She will one day realize that in a perfect world, she would have stayed with her first mother. She would know her original father and never have to wonder if they are thinking about her.

There will be wounds that arise that I cannot heal. But that isn't my role in this at all.  My role, my reason for being in her life, is to bring her to the feet of Jesus daily and allow Him to show her his redeeming plan.

I dream of a day in Heaven where she will be whole. I pray her birth family will be there with her and she will get to experience life with them.

So today we remember her becoming ours, but everyday we live out becoming us.

Hurricane Ezra

It's been awhile since I've blogged because well, toddlers.

As my son turned one last week, I fell into a state of reflection.  How had it been a whole year already? At the same time, Hurricane Irma was barreling toward Flordia, my home.

In my reflection on his birthday, I felt as if the effects or a hurricane are much like how our family felt when Ezra arrived.  Yes, it felt like a hurricane.

My labor and his delivery were perfect, much like days at the beach before a storm rolls in.  Shortly after though, it was clear that it wouldn't be as smooth sailing as before.  There were nursing issues, newborn testing issues and Ezra was born with a lip and tongue tie. All manageable but when your baby screams because his mouth isn't working right to nurse and you don't have that much supply, it can be very frustrating. Very.  Throw an 18-month old in the mix and in some ways she was like the little tornadoes that pop up in midst of the hurricanes.  Ezra's first two weeks home, Emily got her first ear infection followed by Hand, Foot and Mouth. Then I got the flu and the stomach bug.  Nursed and pumped through all of it.   Oh and, no one was sleeping.

Eventually, it was time to go back to work. At the same time, our family grew so did our church.  To manage both things, some parts of my life had to go and so the winds of the storm came in.  I was either nursing, changing a diaper, pumping, working(and pumping there too, many times on my way to Vandy for hospital visits) or preparing to do it all over again.  I guess you could say this is when I started to feel like I was at the mercy of the wind again.

I felt like the "wind" did cause some damage in my life.  Friendships that weren't rooted fell.  I was trying to survive and I had nothing left for anyone else.  I still don't feel like all of them have recovered. There is no time to talk on the phone, if I have any free time, I want to see my kids but at the same time I also need "me' time but there is guilt because they are always with someone else. As they age and there are more waking hours, this fades a bit but I lost friends.

Then there is rain. The rain represents tears. I spent many hours in Ezra's room, trying to feed him through tears and singing, "I need thee every hour".  Nursing is no joke.  My friend Amanda was an incredible support to me during this time. She came over almost every day to help me get the hang of it.  I made it 8 months and then I just couldn't anymore.

In hurricanes, you put up sandbags to protect your house. I've put on sandbags on my thighs and waist. :) I don't look or feel my best, just like a house isn't sell-worthy when it is prepped for a hurricane. However, after the storm is gone, you put the sandbags away. I finally feel like I can start to do that.

Then there is flooding. I felt flooded but not in a bad way.  I felt flooded by God's grace and God's presence.  Never once did I feel abandoned by Him. I constantly felt Him saying, "Breathe, I love you". I was flooded by grace from my husband.  I couldn't invest in him at all and he fostered no resentment.  I was flooded by grace of some close friends that continued to support me.  Like my friend Jen, that took off work to come to my house while my husband was gone and be with my screaming baby so I could shower and have a minute alone.  Grace.

Hurricanes can be refining in a way.  While they tear down, they make a way for new things to begin.  Just a house is restored or built, a new me has been constructed.   Hear me in this, my Ezra is an absolute blessing but I can't ignore how much his presence swept away what was and made a way for new growth in me. It was hard in the beginning but there is so much beauty in the rebuilding.  It is difficult to watch things deteriorate but amazing to see that things that withstand the storm winds.

My treasure was also my tragedy and there is beauty in both because they became trail to this new stage in my life.  This stage is loud, busy and messy but I wouldn't trade it for the world.